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Wednesday, April 29, 2015

Prayers for Piper

It's been another trying month. 

Surgery went well and she recovered quickly without any problems. She hardly cried or complained at all which was a huge blessing but we are now facing some unexpected challenges. 

Since the VNS implant we have seen an increase in seizure activity. We were told the first few weeks after recovery would most likely cause some increases due to pain. We waited it out and expected her to get back to "normal" after she fully recovered. The device is slowly ramped up every week until the desired settings are reached. She has only had 2 out of 6 adjustments and it has been rough. After every adjustment we have seen a huge increase in seizures, up to over 15 seizures a day. Some of these episodes can last up to an hour, so the majority of her day is spent seizing. 

 We think the VNS is actually causing seizures. We are frustrated and extremely disappointed. Our Neurologist said its unusual for this to happen but we have already talked to a few families who had these issues too and ended up turning off the device. All we can do now is push through the adjustments and pray things level out or turn the device off. We don't know what is best and have spent hours trying to decide what to do. 

All we have ever wanted for Piper is for her to be happy and as healthy as possible. We have tried everything and sacrificed our happiness in the process. We have always been willing to do this for her and are at a point where we don't know what to do next. With so many seizures we can't get out much and when we try it's usually more stressful than fun. 

 We are praying for direction, patience and strength. Please pray for all of us. She deserves a break, please pray she gets one soon. 

Tuesday, March 3, 2015

VNS surgery, MRI and Strabismus

It has been quite a while since I have updated the blog. We have made some big decisions and have some new things going on with Piper.

Piper has been off seizure medications and is only using Cannabis oil for seizure control, it is pretty amazing! The last wean in October was pretty rough, but seizure patterns leveled out and we were able to establish a new baseline. She is currently having around the same or better control, without the horrible vision loss side effects. She actually has days where we see no activity at all!! The cannabis oil is really working!

So you would assume things are going well...

We are really surprised to see some new changes in mood, pain and irritability. Since her first seizure, Piper has been on pharmaceuticals, most with sedating side effects. We really have never seen her true personality or seen her communicate that she is in real pain. We have seen a new child, in good ways and in really bad ways. Since she has spent most of her life sedated, we can now see that many of her issues cause her a lot of pain and discomfort. She now has crying episodes that can last non stop for days at a time. These are full force painful screaming tantrum like episodes and there is absolutely nothing you can do but wait it out. The longest one lasted every waking hour for 5 days. There was absolutely nothing we could do to calm her down and trust me, we tried EVERYTHING. We have gone down the list of reasons for the screaming and after 4 months we think we have figured it out. We first suspected GI issues but during her last 72 hour stretch of screaming we took her to the ER and had a stomach X-ray and learned that was not the problem. We have methodically been keeping notes of when they occur and what variables are the same from the previous episode. We have consistently seen that crying episodes are caused by NOT having a seizure for an extended period of time. It seems that there is so much activity in her brain that is not able to be "released" via seizure that it builds up and causes extreme pain. Every crying episode is followed by a large seizure and then she is back to her happy self.

We are now at the point where there are many days where we pray for a seizure....just to make the crying go away. It has gotten to the point where our whole family's quality of life is being affected. We haven't been able to take her anywhere because the crying is so bad. We alternate taking Evan to do fun stuff and try to keep him away from the chaos. He learned very quickly that screaming gets Piper attention so he does it too. We have tried pretty much everything, the only thing that has helped at all, surprisingly is essential oils. They have helped with a lot of her ailments but we think that the pain may be a little more severe and we need to do something to help her get some relief. So with all of these new issues, we have been doing research and talking to our Neurologist about the best plan of action.

We have decided that a VNS implant is our best option for seizure and mood control. We don't want to put her on any medication for mood, especially since we saw how sedated she really was. The VNS is something we have always considered but she has never been big enough for the implant until now. The VNS is an implant on her Vagus nerve and is often called a "pacemaker" for the brain. It is designed to prevent seizures by sending mild impulses of electrical energy to the brain. With Piper's build up of extra energy in her brain, the VNS will most likely help clear some of the "noise" so she can rest. You can use a magnet and swipe the device when she is having a seizure and it will slow it down or stop it completely. We can also train Toby to swipe the magnet too! We have done months of research and talked to a lot of people who said it really helped with mood. We are praying it works for both seizures and mood. To learn more about the implant click here

The surgery will be on March 31 and she will also have a MRI and strabismus surgery. Since we are putting her under we wanted to get it all done at once. The strabismus surgery is a simple procedure that will help strengthened the muscles in her eyes and hopefully help with the crossing. It could possibly help with her gross motor skills and her vision.

We have a very busy, stressful month and could use prayers. We know this is a great option for her with no side effects and slight risk for infection. It is still not easy to know your child is going to have surgery and a device placed in their body. Please pray that the combination of Cannabis oil and the VNS will finally be the answer!

Thursday, December 4, 2014

Rodan and Fields Holiday Sale

We are offering a huge discount on our most popular products when you purchase a bundle! Purchase a bundle today and you will receive 20% off your bundle and a free eye cream (valued at $60). This deal will last until December 31, so get signed up now!  For this month only I will also be adding a 20$ cash back to those who sign on as a preferred customer and purchase a bundle. Don't miss out on this amazing deal!

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Our REDEFINE regimen is a comprehensive skincare solution that layers cosmetic ingredients and proven peptide technology to help defend against and reduce the visible signs of aging for noticeably firmer, smoother and flawless looking skin. Here are the bundles that are 20% off and qualify for a free eye cream.

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Our REVERSE line is an award winning line that is a full face solution and tackles dullness, uneven skin tone, dark marks and other cumulative, telltale signs associated with skin damage.

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Our UNBLEMISH regimen is a continuous solution that addresses the acne cycle and penetrates pores to eliminate acne blemishes.

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Don't forget those stocking stuffers and gifts for family and friends! Here are some of our most popular products. Give the gift of great skin!

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Thursday, October 30, 2014

November Epilepsy Fundraiser

November is national epilepsy awareness month and my goal this year is to raise money for the Epilepsy foundation to help fund research. These donations will also help a new project called the Rare Epilepsy Network whose goal is to expedite research into the rare epilepsies including Aicardi syndrome. The project will collect data, improve treatments, provide a better quality of life for people with rare epilepsy like our daughter Piper. There is no cure for Epilepsy but there is so much more research that can be done into treatments, improving quality of care and educating the public. Every penny counts!

To read more about the project follow the link below

 To learn more about Aicardi Syndrome and Piper follow the link below 

 How can you help?

For the month of November I will be donating half of my profits from my Rodan and Fields business commission to the Epilepsy Foundation. As a consultant with Rodan and Fields I have been able to provide clients with products that truly change skin and change lives. We have products that target sun damage, Anti-aging, sensitive skin and acne. The regimens are a multi-med therapy that work best in a specific order and when used together. The products are clinical strength and heal simple to complex skin conditions with a 60 day money back guarantee. To view our products please follow the link below

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Friday, October 3, 2014

More tough decisions

Fall used to be my favorite time of year. My birthday, the leaves changing colors, football, a crisp to the air, pumpkins, and the fun fall activites. Since Piper was born fall has become a season we dread because the memories are so painful. Piper had her first seizure on October 15, 2011. It's a date we will never forget as hard as we try to. We spent Piper's first Thanksgiving in the hospital. Her first  Christmas was filled with hundreds of terrible seizures. These are the times most young families are making precious memories and enjoying first moments with their child.

October is here once again and with it brings bad news and difficult decisions. Decisions that no young parent (or anyone for that matter) should have to make for their child. We should be enjoying this time of year with both of our children but we are forced to put all of our energy (which isn't much) into figuring our what to do next. Our spirits are low and we are both physically, mentally and emotionally exhausted.

Since we moved to Colorado all of our efforts have been focused on cannabis oil, seizure control, advocating and educating. It has by far been more than a blessing. This plant has helped so much with seizure control, alertness and awareness. Unfortunately with all of our focus on seizure control, many of the other terrible things that can occur with Aicardi syndrome have been put on the back burner. We prayed and hoped we wouldn't have to deal with these issues but now they are here and we have to figure out our plan of action.

Sabril is the only pharmaceutical that has ever helped Piper's seizures. It comes with a cost, the risk of vision loss. When we first started this medication, seizures were so bad that we decided that seizure control trumped vision loss. We didn't have a choice.  She has been on this medication for almost 3 years with no signs of damage to her eyes...until now. She is seen by an Ophthalmologist every 3 months for this very reason, to look for changes in her vision. We got the news yesterday at her appointment that there are changes in her peripheral pigmentation which means the medicine has started affecting her vision. We have always known this could happen but just prayed it wouldn't happen to her. We are faced with some difficult decisions that will affect her life forever. We will have to try and get her off this drug so the damage to her eyes does not continue. The scary part is we could see some serious increases in seizures. If this is the case we may have to continue the medicine and accept vision loss. I cannot tell you how hard it was to give her this medicine this morning, it was truly sickening. I am giving my child something that is causing irreversible damage and there is nothing I can do about it now.

We spoke with Piper's neurologist today and he agreed with us that it is time to try a wean to see if it is really even helping her anymore. It will be a month long process and we will start today. PLEASE PRAY seizures don't get worse. This is the best control we have ever had so we are very worried and nervous to make any changes. It will be difficult to transition since I just started school and Justin has been traveling so much. Hopefully she will tolerate the wean and things will be fine.

Earlier in the summer we suspected Piper was developing scoliosis which is typical with children who have low muscle tone. We took her to an Orthopedic doctor who confirmed our suspicions. He took xrays of her spine and hips. She has a slight curve (15 degrees) and her hips have not formed correctly. He did not act very concerned and told us to come back in 6 months. He also refferred us to a rehab therapist to help follow these issues and make sure we are connected. We met with her on Monday and she blindsided me by telling me Piper will need spinal and hip surgery in the next few years. The doctor had mentioned none of this so I was really suprised. I am very aware of the spinal issues as most of our Aicardi friends have gone through this or are currently going through this situation. I expected that it would be a lot later in her life before we talked about surgery. They mentioned that it will probably be need in two years and to go ahead and start meeting with the surgeon. They said bracing only prolongs the surgery and once she as scoliosis she will defientley need surgery.

She also told me Piper will most likely need hip surgery in a year to correct the ball and socket issues so she will not be in unbearable pain. I asked if she needed this since she does not walk and shows no signs of being able to in the future. The doctor said she will most likely just be in tons of pain if we don't. I have already talked to the other Aicardi parents and the ones who opted for surgery said they regret it because the pain from the surgery and recovery was worse than the pain from the issue. So it looks like we have a lot to think about.

On top all of this crazy news, Piper has just not been herself. For the past 2 months she has screaming spells that can last all day. There are many days where she will just scream or cry for hours and there is nothing we can do to console her. We have tried everything. We have done tests, taken her to every doctor to make sure she is not in pain but we just cannot figure out the reason why she has these outbursts. A friend of ours who has a daughter with Aicardi has been going through the exact same situation so we brainstorm what could be causing this behavior. We don't know if it is pain, boredom, behavioral issues or just frustration with not being able to communicate. It is exhausting for all of us. Evan has started mimicking her behavior so when she screams he does too. He sees how much attention she gets when she screams and wants that attention too. He is a very smart kid but we don't want him to be unhappy just to get our attention. 

We have some tough decisons to make but just like everything else we will figure it out with a lot of hard work and problem solving. I am going to end this post with  things I am thankful for even though some days they are over shadowed by the negative.

-We have a beautiful, smart, HEALTHY little boy who is an amazing blessing. He is almost standing on his own and will be walking before we know it.

-We raised enough money (thanks to many of you) to have a service dog trained for Piper. Toby couldn't be cuter!

-I just started school on the weekends to get my CNA certification. In Colorado, family members with CNA (nursing assistant) training can provide care for the affected person and get paid to do so. I will be able to earn some money and help with our financial responsibilities and that not only will help with bills but allows me to feel like I am carrying some of the financial weight.

-My part time business with Rodan and Fields is doing really well and I have finally been able to provide some income and help with expenses. I haven't gotten a pay check since I was teaching in 2010 and it feels really great to be able to help out with bills. It's so much fun too and allows me to connect with people and help them love their skin.

Thanks for the support, love and prayers.

Saturday, August 30, 2014

Seizure Response Dog

We have just recently started the process in getting a seizure response dog for Piper! As most of you know we had to leave our sweet pups back in TN with our best friends. It was one of the hardest things we had to do, they are our first babies! They are in a home where they get constant attention and are probably better off there. It's been hard not having them so a few months ago we started talking about a service dog for Piper. We came across a few companies that will train dogs specifically for people with eplilepsy. We had a hard time finding a company that would work with us since most patients have to be able to say commands to the dog, which Piper is unable to. Some of these companies charge up to $20,000 to train the dog so we thought it would be many years before this could be a possibility for us.

I was on facebook and came across a friend's post about their seizure response dog and asked for more information. Surprisingly she told me the company is in Monument, Colorado which is 20 minutes away from our house! We quickly got a hold of the company to find out more information. They told us they can train a dog to see me as the master but what makes Piper happy pleases me. It will take more training but it can be done. We learned that these dogs can really do amazing things, like respond to seizures by alerting someone, getting a phone, getting rescue medicine, and comforting the patient after the seizure is over.
We don't expect the dog to be able to sense seizures before they occur. What we do hope for is a companion for Piper. Our biggest fear with Piper is Sudden Death from Epileopsy (SUDEP). Piper often has seizures in the middle of the night, and while we have a monitor, they are often missed. With a seizure response dog, the dog would be able to alert us when these times occur. We also hope that he would be there to comfort Piper after the seizure is over.
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We don't expect the dog to be able to sense seizures before they occur.  What we do hope for is a companion for Piper. Our biggest fear with Piper is Sudden Death from Epilepsy (SUDEP). Piper often has seizures at night, and while we have a monitor, they can be missed. We hardly get a good nights sleep because one of us is "in charge" of watching for seizures. With the dog we will finally have help at night and hopefully get some more sleep!

The cost of training the dog will be almost $9,000. It would take us a very long time to save this money so we decided to do a fundraiser. We are overwhelmed with how many people have donated and are so excited because we are now on the wait list for the next available puppy! We will be getting a golden doodle and we have been told by many people this is an excellent choice for a service dog. Once they find a puppy we will begin training in our home. They suggest starting training when the dog is very small so he can be around Piper and possibly learn to sense her seizures.
here is a picture of a golden doodle, this is not our dog  but an example of what they look like

If you want to learn more about the company, the fundraiser or donations go to this link

We just want to thank everyone for donations, spreading the word and continuing to support our family. We love you all!
These dogs are trained to respond to seizures by alerting someone that a seizure is occurring, getting rescue medicine, getting a phone, and comforting the patient after the seizure is over. In many instances, these dogs are able to sense and alert the patient before the seizure even begins - See more at:
These dogs are trained to respond to seizures by alerting someone that a seizure is occurring, getting rescue medicine, getting a phone, and comforting the patient after the seizure is over. In many instances, these dogs are able to sense and alert the patient before the seizure even begins - See more at:
These dogs are trained to respond to seizures by alerting someone that a seizure is occurring, getting rescue medicine, getting a phone, and comforting the patient after the seizure is over. In many instances, these dogs are able to sense and alert the patient before the seizure even begins - See more at:

Friday, July 4, 2014

How to invest in your skin

Beauty products are expensive. Finding ones that work usually means a lot of trial and error, which means more money lost. It took me many years to understand that investing money in products that truly work will actually save me money in the long run. If I had started doing this 10 years ago my skin would not need as much work and my money would have been well spent. Now i know!

It was about 6 years ago when I was 27 that I started noticing a lot of changes in my skin. I saw deeper lines on my forehead, crow's feet and frown lines in between my eyes. I had never taken care of my skin, been sun burnt  too many times and it was starting to show. I starting worrying that it would get worse and finally started looking for products to help. I was in grad school at the time and very frugal so spending money on expensive products was something I just didn't want to do. I remember buying Oil of Olay products which were anywhere from $12-20 a bottle. I tried these products for at least a year and didn't see any changes in my wrinkles, they actually were getting worse. I also did not use facial sunscreen so that just added to the damage. I came across the meaningful beauty commercial and was intrigued by the "amazing results" before and after pictures  and desperately wanted to try the regimen. I finally signed up for their program and was thrilled to receive the products. The first time I washed my face the toner burned so bad I had to put an ice cold washcloth on my face to stop the burning. I stopped using the toner and continued with the rest of the regimen. I was highly disappointed at the end of my trial of the products and decided to refund the products since I saw no results again. Long story short, it was nearly impossible to return my items so I ended up throwing money away again. In my late 20's I started having horrible acne outbreaks that would leave me embarrassed to even leave the house. I once again spent tons of money on inexpensive products that didn't help or were too harsh. I finally found the Proactiv line and used it for a year and my acne was gone...for good. So what is the point? I spent hundreds of dollars on products spread over a long time so it seemed like I wasn't spending too much money. Little did I know I was spending tons of money with no results and when I did invest on a better product I finally saw results.

Why do I care about investing money in my skin? It's your skin!! You can spend tons of money on clothes, jewelry, accessories and shoes but  you only have one chance at your skin. I am 33 and seeing changes in my skin I didn't think I would see until my 40's. If I don't do anything now what will my skin look like in 10, 20 or 30 years? I don't want to wake up 20 years from now and wish I had done more. I have friends my age who are already doing botox and considering plastic surgery. I can't imagine how expensive those procedures are and you still have to spend money on products to keep your skin looking good after surgery. With Rodan and Fields you get products that really work without having to go to the dermatologist, another added expense that many insurance companies don't cover. When I first became interested in using the products I sat down and calculated how much I am already spending on myself. What expenses could be cut? Do I really need all those shoes? I was really surprised how easily I could budget for these products simply buy cutting some costs in other areas. I challenge you to sit down and do the same, it was pretty shocking what I was already spending.

Why did I chose Rodan and Fields? As I mentioned before, I loved the Proactiv line and it healed my skin and didn't just temporarily fix the problem. Rodan and Fields are the dermatologists that developed Proactiv so when I heard they expanded their line to fight anti-aging, sun damage and sensitive skin I knew their products were reliable.

I look at investing in Rodan and Fields products like I do when purchasing a house or car. You can buy something cheaper and less reliable and end up spending money just as much money on repairs. In my opinion,  spending more money initially on a reliable product is a better investment with less stress. So what if you don't have the money to invest?

This is what I love about this company, you can invest in the company and pay for your products with little risk. As a consultant, you can buy your own products at cost and with just a few orders a month cover your costs. You don't have to have a big business and spend hours of time you don't have. You can basically just be a consultant to get your products at cost. It's so much easier than most people imagine. You can do all of your work through facebook and emails if that is easier for you. This is one reason why I started this business. I just wanted to feel like the risk of spending money on products wasn't there. Little did I know it would be much bigger! For me, getting a paycheck again has been one of the most empowering feelings. It just makes me feel like I can help provide for my family and have fun while doing it. Most of you know my personality, I am not a sales person! That was my initial fear but once realized it not that kind of company I really felt at home. I love just connecting with old friends and being able to talk to people and make new friends. It's a lot more fun to talk about pampering yourself with a stranger than Aicardi syndrome, seizures and therapy. It truly has been a game changer. The reason why I am sharing this with you is because I have so many friends who may be in the same situation. Money is tight and it's scary to make investments. Just letting you know that this company can take the risk out of spending your money by allowing you to invest in them. I would love to help you do the same!