For those of you that remember the movie 'What about Bob' this may sound familiar. This seemed to work for Bob so we have adopted this method for getting through the tough obstacles in our lives. So far it's working.
As most of you know, we are expecting a baby girl Piper in August. This is our first child and we are ecstatic about meeting her. The pregnancy has been nothing less than the hardest thing either one of us has been through. In August, I mentioned wanting to get a puppy, Justin said it would be too much work and having a baby would be easier...boy was he wrong.
My pregnancy began fairly normal (i guess?) I experienced about 2 months of all day long morning sickness which was no fun but I just tried to suck it up and not complain. Easier said than done. Around the beginning of my second trimester the sickness began to fade and I started feeling like myself again. Around this time we were able to find out if we were going to have a little girl or boy. I think the day we went to the doctor was the happiest and most exciting day for both of us. Little did we know we would leave the hospital in tears. We found out we are having a little girl (yay!) and ten minutes later we found out there is an abnormality on her brain in the ultrasound. Talk about going from being on top of the world to about as low as you can possibly feel in a matter of ten minutes. We were advised to go to a high risk doctor so they could give us more answers.
Our first visit to the high risk doctor was an unusual experience for both of us. We went in scared and nervous and left confused and sad. The doctor we met with was the spitting image of the wizard of oz...and his words of wisdom were "it's all gravy". Not the reassurance we were hoping for. We found out nothing except time will tell, so we left and tried to just stay positive. Through the next weeks we continued visiting both doctors and I was scheduled for a MRI. The doctors told us that it was mainly for observation and it was unlikely we would know much about her condition.
We went back to the doctor after the MRI and thinking we wouldn't know anything else about her, we were told her diagnosis at the appointment. (By the way, this is the day before Justin left for a week long mission trip to Honduras) They said she has Agenesis of the Corpus Callosum...What??? All I could do was sit there and hold back tears. There is no feeling like hearing there is something wrong with your baby and there is nothing you can do. The doctor explained to us that the structure in her brain that connects the left and right hemisphere is not present. It develops in the first trimester and if it's not there now it will never be. He also told us there are no two cases the same so we will have no clue how she will be affected until we meet her. So we left and cried together. Justin started accepting the situation and I just cried the rest of the day.
That was May 20, and we both are doing a lot better now. We are scared but it doesn't control our life in a negative way. We both have faith in God and know that he has a plan for us even if it's hard to understand. We know that this is going to be the hardest thing we have ever gone through but we have each other,our faith, family and amazing friends. We are just learning how to be patient and slow our lives down so that we can take each day at a time.
